A Sick Baby ='s a Guilty Feeling and Regret sometimes

Monday night was spent at the ER with my baby girl.  The outcome of our visit was that Elizabeth has Pneumonia.  At first all I could do was cry because I immediately felt like it was my fault since I have her in daycare.  The doctor made sure to tell me that it's because she is in daycare and not to feel bad because it's common for baby's to have this their first few years of life and did that make me feel any better, of course not!

I was angry with the parents at first because of course one of them dropped their kid off sick and made my baby girl sick, but what I read online quickly changed my mind about that.  I read that pneumonia actually isn't contagious and that it usually develops from a cold which my baby keeps from being at daycare.

After spending the day with Elizabeth yesterday I knew that her being in daycare is very beneficial, but it still does not take away my guilt and regret that I'm not a stay at home mom and able to spend more time with Elizabeth. 

My husband, being the stand up guy he is, went to McDonald's this morning to get me coffee because he knew how I was feeling about having to take Elizabeth to daycare and the that I hardly slept last night out of the fear of something happening to Lizzy while she slept.  He also was unable to take today off and I am sure he feels a little regret about that as well. 

I have 2 weeks of work off coming up soon and I am definitely going to spend that time with Elizabeth and showing her all the love and attention I can!