Just one Of Those Days

Well it was a pretty eventful weekend here in Okinawa.  We didn't experience the earthquake thankfully, but we were under tsunami watch most of the weekend.  I must admit it was pretty scary, but my only thoughts were of the people suffering on mainland and of keeping Lizzy protected.  It's amazing that once you have a child you no longer think about yourself first. 

My husband and I were talking a few hours after the warning was issued and he told my truthfully that when he first heard the warning his only thought was to rush home to make sure he was there to take care of Lizzy and he ask if that hurt me and I told him with the biggest smile absolutely not, I feel the same way! I even broke it down for him and told him that if we are ever in a situation and he knows that without a doubt he could only take care of Lizzy I told him to take her run and don't even look back.  That's what being a parent is all about placing your child's needs before your own.  Don't get what I am saying wrong, by thinking does that mean never having a date night again or getting out and enjoying yourself no, it just means not getting that pair of 200 shoes you want because that 200 could easily go into your little one's account or toward necessities for them. 

This morning I was heart broken because I had to drop Lizzy off at daycare. It was one of those days that I just wanted to stay home and snuggle on the couch with her.  I could tell she wasn't feeling a hundred percent and she had a restless night, but sometimes we have to make sacrifices that we don't really want.  Once I dropped Lizzy off she seemed fine and was eager to play with her friends, but as a mother I still had that guilt in my heart knowing she wasn't a hundred percent.  So today I will keep my cell attached to my side and call every few hours just to make sure she is OK.