A week into my spring break and I have gotten some much needed rest. I am still letting baby girl sleep with me, but I am starting to let her sleep in her crib as well. I know it is going to be a process, but I'm getting there.
Back to work next week and I am determined to start a work-out program next week as well. I am going to try to share my journey to weight loss as it happens.
2011年3月30日水曜日
2011年3月23日水曜日
Feeling Better and BREAK...
I am happy to report that Lizzy is feeling much much better, but since she got sick last week she has been super clingy and fussy whenever I leave her sight. I was getting use to the idea of my baby girl being a little independent and doing her own thing, but now I have to teach her how to do that again.
Spring break starts for me today which mean extra time with Lizzy. I am excited about having a little time off even though I have only been back to work for a little over a month. I am sure I will report back early to plan lessons and organize my classroom.
Spring break starts for me today which mean extra time with Lizzy. I am excited about having a little time off even though I have only been back to work for a little over a month. I am sure I will report back early to plan lessons and organize my classroom.
2011年3月16日水曜日
A Sick Baby ='s a Guilty Feeling and Regret sometimes
Monday night was spent at the ER with my baby girl. The outcome of our visit was that Elizabeth has Pneumonia. At first all I could do was cry because I immediately felt like it was my fault since I have her in daycare. The doctor made sure to tell me that it's because she is in daycare and not to feel bad because it's common for baby's to have this their first few years of life and did that make me feel any better, of course not!
I was angry with the parents at first because of course one of them dropped their kid off sick and made my baby girl sick, but what I read online quickly changed my mind about that. I read that pneumonia actually isn't contagious and that it usually develops from a cold which my baby keeps from being at daycare.
After spending the day with Elizabeth yesterday I knew that her being in daycare is very beneficial, but it still does not take away my guilt and regret that I'm not a stay at home mom and able to spend more time with Elizabeth.
My husband, being the stand up guy he is, went to McDonald's this morning to get me coffee because he knew how I was feeling about having to take Elizabeth to daycare and the that I hardly slept last night out of the fear of something happening to Lizzy while she slept. He also was unable to take today off and I am sure he feels a little regret about that as well.
I have 2 weeks of work off coming up soon and I am definitely going to spend that time with Elizabeth and showing her all the love and attention I can!
I was angry with the parents at first because of course one of them dropped their kid off sick and made my baby girl sick, but what I read online quickly changed my mind about that. I read that pneumonia actually isn't contagious and that it usually develops from a cold which my baby keeps from being at daycare.
After spending the day with Elizabeth yesterday I knew that her being in daycare is very beneficial, but it still does not take away my guilt and regret that I'm not a stay at home mom and able to spend more time with Elizabeth.
My husband, being the stand up guy he is, went to McDonald's this morning to get me coffee because he knew how I was feeling about having to take Elizabeth to daycare and the that I hardly slept last night out of the fear of something happening to Lizzy while she slept. He also was unable to take today off and I am sure he feels a little regret about that as well.
I have 2 weeks of work off coming up soon and I am definitely going to spend that time with Elizabeth and showing her all the love and attention I can!
2011年3月14日月曜日
Just one Of Those Days
Well it was a pretty eventful weekend here in Okinawa. We didn't experience the earthquake thankfully, but we were under tsunami watch most of the weekend. I must admit it was pretty scary, but my only thoughts were of the people suffering on mainland and of keeping Lizzy protected. It's amazing that once you have a child you no longer think about yourself first.
My husband and I were talking a few hours after the warning was issued and he told my truthfully that when he first heard the warning his only thought was to rush home to make sure he was there to take care of Lizzy and he ask if that hurt me and I told him with the biggest smile absolutely not, I feel the same way! I even broke it down for him and told him that if we are ever in a situation and he knows that without a doubt he could only take care of Lizzy I told him to take her run and don't even look back. That's what being a parent is all about placing your child's needs before your own. Don't get what I am saying wrong, by thinking does that mean never having a date night again or getting out and enjoying yourself no, it just means not getting that pair of 200 shoes you want because that 200 could easily go into your little one's account or toward necessities for them.
This morning I was heart broken because I had to drop Lizzy off at daycare. It was one of those days that I just wanted to stay home and snuggle on the couch with her. I could tell she wasn't feeling a hundred percent and she had a restless night, but sometimes we have to make sacrifices that we don't really want. Once I dropped Lizzy off she seemed fine and was eager to play with her friends, but as a mother I still had that guilt in my heart knowing she wasn't a hundred percent. So today I will keep my cell attached to my side and call every few hours just to make sure she is OK.
My husband and I were talking a few hours after the warning was issued and he told my truthfully that when he first heard the warning his only thought was to rush home to make sure he was there to take care of Lizzy and he ask if that hurt me and I told him with the biggest smile absolutely not, I feel the same way! I even broke it down for him and told him that if we are ever in a situation and he knows that without a doubt he could only take care of Lizzy I told him to take her run and don't even look back. That's what being a parent is all about placing your child's needs before your own. Don't get what I am saying wrong, by thinking does that mean never having a date night again or getting out and enjoying yourself no, it just means not getting that pair of 200 shoes you want because that 200 could easily go into your little one's account or toward necessities for them.
This morning I was heart broken because I had to drop Lizzy off at daycare. It was one of those days that I just wanted to stay home and snuggle on the couch with her. I could tell she wasn't feeling a hundred percent and she had a restless night, but sometimes we have to make sacrifices that we don't really want. Once I dropped Lizzy off she seemed fine and was eager to play with her friends, but as a mother I still had that guilt in my heart knowing she wasn't a hundred percent. So today I will keep my cell attached to my side and call every few hours just to make sure she is OK.
2011年3月10日木曜日
Trying to run Before Walking and Guilt
I had the greatest moment with my baby girl a few days ago. She is officially trying to start running, yeah I said running. She gets so excited that she can actually hold on to things and walk now that when my husband or I come in the room she tries to get to us as quickly as possible and ends up falling. So far so good, no boo boo's yet other than at the day care.
I am still loving my new job, but I have those days where I feel so guilty about Lizzy being in day care and I really miss her during the day. I love the fact that when I pick her up they tell me the new things that she is doing, but it also breaks my heart to know I missed that moment in her life. I know I will see it, but I didn't get to see it first. Although I know I am providing a quality of life for Lizzy that she might not have not attending day care it still gets to me some days.
It's going to be a mommy daughter day on Sunday because hubby has duty, one of the many jobs of the military that people don't know about. I enjoy those moments, but I know my husband sure does miss Elizabeth when he is at work.
I am still loving my new job, but I have those days where I feel so guilty about Lizzy being in day care and I really miss her during the day. I love the fact that when I pick her up they tell me the new things that she is doing, but it also breaks my heart to know I missed that moment in her life. I know I will see it, but I didn't get to see it first. Although I know I am providing a quality of life for Lizzy that she might not have not attending day care it still gets to me some days.
It's going to be a mommy daughter day on Sunday because hubby has duty, one of the many jobs of the military that people don't know about. I enjoy those moments, but I know my husband sure does miss Elizabeth when he is at work.
2011年3月7日月曜日
One of those days
It's just one of those days here in Okinawa. Woke up to the sound of rain and of course couldn't find my umbrella. It's ok though because I am determined to have a great day. On another note I had a great weekend with Anthony and Lizzy. She got a new toy and has already managed to find out how to work all the fun stuff on it. We had to video tape her because she was laughing it up at me playing with her. Hopefully I will be able to post pics of her in it soon along with the video.
Hope everyone has a great week!
Hope everyone has a great week!
2011年3月4日金曜日
Work after 2 weeks
Wow, I do not think I have been this tired in months. I am slowly trying to ween my baby from co-sleeping and I think it's a 50/50 deal because although I want to sleep soundly at night I also love the fact that I know she's there with me and she's ok. I am one of those moms that is paranoid about SIDS and I am sure once she turns one I won't be as worried.
I have been back to work for 2 weeks now and loving it. Although I started at the end of a school year and the kids are somewhat set in their ways the new school year for Japanese schools starts in April. I am looking forward to a fresh start!
It was a struggle leaving Elizabeth when she was younger at daycare, but now I enjoy dropping her off and seeing the excitement as she sees her friends and tells me bye bye.
What I am most grateful for is that fact that hubby has been able to experience this all with me and has not deployed since Lizzy has been born.
Feel free to leave me any suggestions for weening my baby girl from co-sleeping, I would greatly appreciate it!
I have been back to work for 2 weeks now and loving it. Although I started at the end of a school year and the kids are somewhat set in their ways the new school year for Japanese schools starts in April. I am looking forward to a fresh start!
It was a struggle leaving Elizabeth when she was younger at daycare, but now I enjoy dropping her off and seeing the excitement as she sees her friends and tells me bye bye.
What I am most grateful for is that fact that hubby has been able to experience this all with me and has not deployed since Lizzy has been born.
Feel free to leave me any suggestions for weening my baby girl from co-sleeping, I would greatly appreciate it!
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